Today is finally the day I have been waiting for forever! The second ultrasound. Don't know how to react or what to do if everything isn't okay, so hope so much everything will be great. And if everything is okay, then I will think it is for real, start preparing and so on (even if I sort of have been doing it already).
I spent my free day yesterday by "interneting" and eating. I ate so much it's scary.
Want so much everythigns to be okay, and after that to know if it is a little boy or girl.
Can't wait!!!
onsdag, maj 13
måndag, maj 11
Kids!
Yesterday I went to Karis to meet my mom to go to Ingå to visit my grandmother, we had Jigi with us since she is staying with us in Helsinki until tomorrow. And she was the biggest enterteinment, she couldn't come in since my grandmother has a cat, so she was ouside close to the balcony and "talking" all the time saying with her face that she had now been treated badly. 
She is so cute.
My cousin also came to my grandmothers place, and they have a 6 month old kid/baby, and he also came there. Every time I am close to kids/babies I get some sort of panic, can't look at them or talk about them, just get this weird feeling that I want to get away and hide and that I am not ready for a baby. Luckily there is still 20 weeks left, so I can prepare, and hopefully it is different with your own kid. But still don't know what to say and do with small kids...
Today I work, hopefully my back will be a bit more co-operative than earlier days.
She is so cute.My cousin also came to my grandmothers place, and they have a 6 month old kid/baby, and he also came there. Every time I am close to kids/babies I get some sort of panic, can't look at them or talk about them, just get this weird feeling that I want to get away and hide and that I am not ready for a baby. Luckily there is still 20 weeks left, so I can prepare, and hopefully it is different with your own kid. But still don't know what to say and do with small kids...
Today I work, hopefully my back will be a bit more co-operative than earlier days.
söndag, maj 10
Thank yous
Soon we have finally sent out all the thank you cards from the wedding, this is what they look like:
A lot to cut and glue! And I (okay Micke helped a little bit) have made over 50 of them... Took some time. The photo is taken by Nina Ahtola.
A lot to cut and glue! And I (okay Micke helped a little bit) have made over 50 of them... Took some time. The photo is taken by Nina Ahtola.
Mothersday!
Happy mothers' day to all the moms out there. Hopefully I will be one of them next year. Waiting so much. Had such a great, great and mega real dream this night, so real that I many times in the dream asked if it was a dream, and everybody said no, this is real. Sad that it was not. I gave birth, to a baby girl (weird) and then I fed her and carried her around and she was so the cutest. So now I am a bit confused, my 3 baby dreams before was always with a boy, so I was sure it was a boy (mitt undermedvetande måst ju veta...), but now... Only 3 days to the second ultra, can't wait at all.
Yesterday evening was very nice, it was the humorlandscamp, stand-up in other words, with people I don't meet to often. Great, great!
Today my plans are a bit unclear, but have a nice Sunday!
Yesterday evening was very nice, it was the humorlandscamp, stand-up in other words, with people I don't meet to often. Great, great!
Today my plans are a bit unclear, but have a nice Sunday!
lördag, maj 9
Iron
Did not get such a good start on this morning. Just threw up two rye breads with turkey and cucumber on and a raspberry viilis. The viilis was quite nice to throw up, but the rye bread, not so great, even worse than apple. Trying to get up all those pieces... Feel so sorry for women that throw up a lot, it is horrible.
So, why? This is the 4th time I throw up under this pregnagncy, and it has every time had to do with how I have taken my iron medication. Today I took it before 1 hour before my breakfast, on an empthy stomach (which is how you always should take it). But, normally I always have a small breakfast with the iron, for example fruitbabyfood or an orange, today I did not, tought it would work without. Did not. From now on I should know to stick to what I have learned!!!
The icehockey game was not a success for Finland, so won't go into rewieving that..
So, why? This is the 4th time I throw up under this pregnagncy, and it has every time had to do with how I have taken my iron medication. Today I took it before 1 hour before my breakfast, on an empthy stomach (which is how you always should take it). But, normally I always have a small breakfast with the iron, for example fruitbabyfood or an orange, today I did not, tought it would work without. Did not. From now on I should know to stick to what I have learned!!!
The icehockey game was not a success for Finland, so won't go into rewieving that..
onsdag, maj 6
Ice hockey!
Before yesterday I was totally out with the sport everybody is talking about right now: ice hockey. But today, we are apperently having a "kisastudio" at our place. Lee has been here the whole afternoon and we have made pizza, and eaten a lot of it, and now on the agenda is Finland against someone, and this is an important game. I will probably enjoy the popcorn and ice cream more.. Not so much into ice hockey.
Oh, it is against USA. Use an A (said by Lee, something to do with Borat...)
Oh, it is against USA. Use an A (said by Lee, something to do with Borat...)
Down
I have lately, quite long now actually, been feeling quite down. Nothing a normal person would notice since it is easy to play happy, but I notice it in my head, and I guess Micke also can say since I am so the real (horrible) myself with him. I don't like this feeling, I would like to be happy, happy flying on pink clouds and just be normal me, but no. Right now I just feel like lying in the bed, doing nothing. I have tried to fix it by eating good healthy stuff and rest a lot, and have things to look forward to, but have not totally worked, don't get that great feeling like " wau, life is great" (even if it totally is).
Today I tried something different. Went for a great salad lunch with my second cousin to Teatteri. Yum. Recommend! Then I just walked around and wanted to find a supportive bra (did I? No!) and gave myself the premission to look at baby clothes. And I even bought a pair. Also realised that it is impossible to buy clothes when you don't know the sex, I don't like those brown clothes and all the others are for either sex, and I don't want to dress my son in girly clothes. Children should be treated the same, but in our culture boys and girls dress differently and that is how it is.
This is what I found.
Micke wants a strong child, so bamse is great. And this is something I can imagine both a little girl and a boy sleeping in.
On the way home I ate an arnold's donut (making my stomach bigger...) and when I got home I had some marabou daim. But I still don't feel much better. Hopefully I will get happy when Micke comes home.
Today I also decided to take a first, stomach picture, and decided to post it here. But now, there are 2 things to observe. I never wear clothes that are this tight outside the house (on top of this I had a big shirt), so in real life you don't really see there is a stomach. Second, I have always been quite big, so the stomach is not really that big. Then also some side comments, I put my arms in the air, so I guess that makes it weirder (maybe bigger!?!) and then I took the same picture from different distances, so you see it is quite easy to make a stomach look bigger on pictures...
19+3
Today I tried something different. Went for a great salad lunch with my second cousin to Teatteri. Yum. Recommend! Then I just walked around and wanted to find a supportive bra (did I? No!) and gave myself the premission to look at baby clothes. And I even bought a pair. Also realised that it is impossible to buy clothes when you don't know the sex, I don't like those brown clothes and all the others are for either sex, and I don't want to dress my son in girly clothes. Children should be treated the same, but in our culture boys and girls dress differently and that is how it is.
This is what I found.
Micke wants a strong child, so bamse is great. And this is something I can imagine both a little girl and a boy sleeping in.On the way home I ate an arnold's donut (making my stomach bigger...) and when I got home I had some marabou daim. But I still don't feel much better. Hopefully I will get happy when Micke comes home.
Today I also decided to take a first, stomach picture, and decided to post it here. But now, there are 2 things to observe. I never wear clothes that are this tight outside the house (on top of this I had a big shirt), so in real life you don't really see there is a stomach. Second, I have always been quite big, so the stomach is not really that big. Then also some side comments, I put my arms in the air, so I guess that makes it weirder (maybe bigger!?!) and then I took the same picture from different distances, so you see it is quite easy to make a stomach look bigger on pictures...
19+3
Boy or girl
Okay, I found this page with signs how to know if it is a boy or girl, so here it comes:
Felt very sick in the beginning, then it is a girl - not so much or not at all sick, boy. Our case: Boy
Take the mom's age and the year the baby was done (our case: 23 and 2009) if both numbers are even or uneven then it is a girl, otherwise boy. Our case: Girl
Problems with spots and other faceproblems, then it is a girl (have not had any problems with that). Our case: Boy
If the heartrate of the baby is under 140 then it is a boy and if it is over then it is a girl (it was around 150). Our case: Girl
If you want to eat sweet stuf it is a girl, and if you want salty stuf it is a boy. Have not really felt like sweets, so guess our case is: Boy
According to this we will get a multisex baby who is a bit more boy... Hopefully they can tell us next Wednesday when we have the next ultrasound, but even more I hope they will see that everything is okay.
Felt very sick in the beginning, then it is a girl - not so much or not at all sick, boy. Our case: Boy
Take the mom's age and the year the baby was done (our case: 23 and 2009) if both numbers are even or uneven then it is a girl, otherwise boy. Our case: Girl
Problems with spots and other faceproblems, then it is a girl (have not had any problems with that). Our case: Boy
If the heartrate of the baby is under 140 then it is a boy and if it is over then it is a girl (it was around 150). Our case: Girl
If you want to eat sweet stuf it is a girl, and if you want salty stuf it is a boy. Have not really felt like sweets, so guess our case is: Boy
According to this we will get a multisex baby who is a bit more boy... Hopefully they can tell us next Wednesday when we have the next ultrasound, but even more I hope they will see that everything is okay.
No motivation anymore
Great. Got an e-mail saying my bachelor paper was an disappointment. And I don't even care so much, just don't have the motivation anymore, and want the whole thing to be over. Have been half stressing with it now for half a year, so I am sick of it. If I want a slightly better grade I can still fix some language details, so I will do that. I now realize what I should have done, but tought I was doing that, but no. Want it to be over!!!
tisdag, maj 5
Work
Just counted I will work 15 days this month, and there are 31 days. So this month I have something to do, but what happens next month? (Except SNorge trip (To Norway trough Sweden with car and Lee) and a summer birthday party and midsummer)
Should get some sort of direction in life, but can't find it. I am lost. I was not accepted to Uppsala, but not because of me, but because they said I did not give the proof of my enlgish language. And that is bullshit. I wrote on a paper that I have 30 study points in courses that are tought in English, and which those courses were, and Hanken is a Nordic shool, so it should (and has to!) count. So have to wait some more, and when I get the papers home, I will have to appeal. Still don't know the results from Lund, but it would be so typical I get accepted there, since that happened last time 4-5 years ago, and I would like to go to Uppsala. Applied to a master programme in development studies.
Should get some sort of direction in life, but can't find it. I am lost. I was not accepted to Uppsala, but not because of me, but because they said I did not give the proof of my enlgish language. And that is bullshit. I wrote on a paper that I have 30 study points in courses that are tought in English, and which those courses were, and Hanken is a Nordic shool, so it should (and has to!) count. So have to wait some more, and when I get the papers home, I will have to appeal. Still don't know the results from Lund, but it would be so typical I get accepted there, since that happened last time 4-5 years ago, and I would like to go to Uppsala. Applied to a master programme in development studies.
söndag, maj 3
19+0
So in other words, week 20, month 5. 147 days left! Talking about the pregnancy.
Have started to feel a bit more pregnant, my stomach is growing. Tought it would show well after week 16 (don't know where I got that from) and did not realize it is very individual, and for some you can't see they are pregnant even in week 25, for me you can probably see now if you know, otherwise you just think I am a bit overweight. Will put pictures when it is bigger.
My breasts have at least grown, they feel so heavy. Before I could take walks without a bra (bad at wearing one if I am just home, uncomfortable, so please, no suprise visits!) but now it does not feel good at all. And I am also quite tired and in quite bad shape. Have not felt any kicks yet, at least so that I would know it was one.
The baby should now weight around 250 grams and be around 22 cm long. It is crazy! Inside of me!?
We have still not bought any baby stuff, but I am, still, very excited to buy the baby's "car". (Someone know what "kärra" is in english?) and have now 3 posibilities but no of them is totally perfect, but almost. I (ööh, we) want one with 3 wheeles, and so that you can lock the wheel in the front, then you should be able to change the direction and the wheels should be big. Thinking of:
teutonia spirit s3,
quinny freestyle or
herqules raptor 3 spin.
Anyone reading this blog that knows anything about them?
I also subscribed to a finish baby magazine, vauva. It was cheap and then I will learn a lot. And not take all my ideas, especially on how to eat, from Internet. (That was a sarcastic comment to my mom who thinks I get my ideas only from Internet and no real source).
Have started to feel a bit more pregnant, my stomach is growing. Tought it would show well after week 16 (don't know where I got that from) and did not realize it is very individual, and for some you can't see they are pregnant even in week 25, for me you can probably see now if you know, otherwise you just think I am a bit overweight. Will put pictures when it is bigger.
My breasts have at least grown, they feel so heavy. Before I could take walks without a bra (bad at wearing one if I am just home, uncomfortable, so please, no suprise visits!) but now it does not feel good at all. And I am also quite tired and in quite bad shape. Have not felt any kicks yet, at least so that I would know it was one.
The baby should now weight around 250 grams and be around 22 cm long. It is crazy! Inside of me!?
We have still not bought any baby stuff, but I am, still, very excited to buy the baby's "car". (Someone know what "kärra" is in english?) and have now 3 posibilities but no of them is totally perfect, but almost. I (ööh, we) want one with 3 wheeles, and so that you can lock the wheel in the front, then you should be able to change the direction and the wheels should be big. Thinking of:
teutonia spirit s3,
quinny freestyle or
herqules raptor 3 spin.Anyone reading this blog that knows anything about them?
I also subscribed to a finish baby magazine, vauva. It was cheap and then I will learn a lot. And not take all my ideas, especially on how to eat, from Internet. (That was a sarcastic comment to my mom who thinks I get my ideas only from Internet and no real source).
Apple pie
Today I wanted pie, so I made this delicious pie
Does maybe not look so delicious, since I forgot the cinnamon and put in on top instead. If you want a pie that is done and ready in 30 minutes, then this is your recipe:
Put the oven on 225.
Take two big apples and cut them into pieces, put them in an owen form and put some cinnamon on top.
Mix 0,5 dl of flour, 1 dl of "havregryn" (probably only swedish speakers who would even try making this, otehrwise, ask in the comment field what it is in english, and I will find the translation) and 1-2 table spoons of sugar. Put in on top of the apples.
Take som butter and a cheesecutter and cut the butter to thin slices with the cheesecutter and put butter all over the pie, just one layer.
Have 20 minutes in the owen.
Yummi. I ate 3/4 and Micke got the rest. This is half a normal recipe, but if you are 2-3 persons you won't need more, otherwise make it bigger.
Does maybe not look so delicious, since I forgot the cinnamon and put in on top instead. If you want a pie that is done and ready in 30 minutes, then this is your recipe:
Put the oven on 225.
Take two big apples and cut them into pieces, put them in an owen form and put some cinnamon on top.
Mix 0,5 dl of flour, 1 dl of "havregryn" (probably only swedish speakers who would even try making this, otehrwise, ask in the comment field what it is in english, and I will find the translation) and 1-2 table spoons of sugar. Put in on top of the apples.
Take som butter and a cheesecutter and cut the butter to thin slices with the cheesecutter and put butter all over the pie, just one layer.
Have 20 minutes in the owen.
Yummi. I ate 3/4 and Micke got the rest. This is half a normal recipe, but if you are 2-3 persons you won't need more, otherwise make it bigger.
1 and 2 May
Micke traveling with my relatives and their friends with their bus from Ingå (enjoying the sparlking wine) while I was driving the car behind them. Not so much fun for me, since the other drivers were very enoying.
The gang going to Knipan in windy Ekenäs.
The yummy starter table!
At Knipan with 2 happy happy persons. But I had an Irish Coffee, without Irish. Yum!!
On Saturday we went to our summer cottage and tried to give it a face lift. Micke was "gathering leaves" and I was playing with the dog or complaining my stomach was hurting. The only thing I actually finished was the food. I am not so good at stuff you do at a summer cottage, but sort of like everything that has to do with food. And my nose also started bleeding so Micke told me to rest, was a great "rester": gave a lot of helpful (probably not) ideas on what Micke and my mom should do.
lördag, maj 2
Springdays
Back in Helsinki again. Have had 2 great days. A lot of sun, fun people, great food and slow cars in Western Nyland (don't understand to drive 100 and not 75). Now we are happy, poor and tired and it is only 11 days until the second ultrasound. Want everything to be fine. Will just relax in the sofa tonight and later post some pictures from 1 and 2 of May. Time passes so fast. Imagine. I have now had the babything in my stomach for 4 months. Tomorrow I go into week 20, so after that week half is done. Crazy! Never tought it would go like this, don't really feel it is happening to me.
fredag, maj 1
My wapp
was of course not at all what I had expected. In a negative sence. I was stressing in the kitchen half the afternoon (making tzatiki potato salad and real meatballs and running to buy something I forgot, and cleaning) and then we only had 1 guest out of 4. Because of the stressing I was also in a bad mood and the one guest we had was entertained by me and Micke being mad at each other, and then me and Micke trying to figure out where the problem was, then becoming friends, getting mad at each other again. And so on.
The best moment of the day was when we came back from Havis Amanda, ate a bit of wappen food, sat i the sofa and just watched TV. So relaxing.
Salad with Micke when he got home, and alcohol free sparkling wine. Had not yet had time for a shower so look veeery nice.
Micke is this happy of getting alchol free sparkling wine, if he would not have known he would not have complained.
Putting the hat on Havis Amanda. It was Hanken's turn this year. Was not so special, but a good wappen tradition. And I got strawberries and was happy for the time it took to eat them, then I was weird again.
People at the Senatsquare, felt a bit out, did not know what to do when I was not in a happy tipsy mood, which all the other people were. Feel I am getting old and boring when I can'tdrink.
Home again, just relaxing, watching simpsons and other weird things. Lovely!
Today we go to Knipan (a restaurant) in Ekenäs with my aunts, uncles, grandfather, mom and so on. And it will actually be very nice. Would like to have a struva. Now.
The best moment of the day was when we came back from Havis Amanda, ate a bit of wappen food, sat i the sofa and just watched TV. So relaxing.
Salad with Micke when he got home, and alcohol free sparkling wine. Had not yet had time for a shower so look veeery nice.
Micke is this happy of getting alchol free sparkling wine, if he would not have known he would not have complained.
Putting the hat on Havis Amanda. It was Hanken's turn this year. Was not so special, but a good wappen tradition. And I got strawberries and was happy for the time it took to eat them, then I was weird again.
People at the Senatsquare, felt a bit out, did not know what to do when I was not in a happy tipsy mood, which all the other people were. Feel I am getting old and boring when I can'tdrink.
Home again, just relaxing, watching simpsons and other weird things. Lovely!
Today we go to Knipan (a restaurant) in Ekenäs with my aunts, uncles, grandfather, mom and so on. And it will actually be very nice. Would like to have a struva. Now.
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