My life will soon again start

Soon I am sending in my first version. I have not worked particularly hard with it, it has just been the stress of getting it done. And of course I wanted it to be as nice as possible, since there will be opponents crashing it down, but now I have realised that better this way, now they have more to comment and I don't have to figure it out all by myself.

The last years of my shool before this (gymnasium) I worked so much harder. During the weekend in Pojo I found 10 paged papers, written on every row, with small margins, now I wrote 20 pages with rowdistance 1,5 and 3cm margins. So it is the same, or less. And I also found an old paper about Ecuador and it was 16 pages on every row. Crazy. I was so much more motivated there.

The weekend in Pojo was great. We went for walks with Jigi in the sun, ate a lot, had many good (and bad) discussions, I had my mom to read my bachelorthing (she said it was really boring and that I just repeat myself. Probably I do) and we went to see Bride Wars yesterday. It was entertaining, but a bit ennoying in the end. Just because you fight once or twice doesn't mean you should not get married and that you will fight the rest of your lives.

Now I am waiting for Micke to come home, he is working and he forgot his phone home, want to talk to him. I forgot mine last Thuesday. It is horrible not having the phone.

Next week I am going to do things, but I need money. I need to get a new passport and a drivers licens (with my new name), take photos for them. It will probably be around 100 euros. Expensive to change name. But we wanted to have the same last name (and I don't like double names and it would be weird for Micke to have the same name as my brother). And then I need to buy clothes and on Thursday we are going for stand up. And Jigi is coming on Wednesday and we get the car and then we go to Ikea to shop, and eat meatballs. Yei.

No pictuer this time either. Sorry.

Try the dress

On Monday I am going to try the wedding dress again, and then they will make it smaller. It is quite big now, so I have not had to worry about my size.

And I am actually quite satisfied with my size, have stayed the same for a long time. Think I´ve looked quite the same since I met Micke. A bit too big of course, but since it is not too, too big, I won't stress with loosing weight, trying to be healthy instead (not working so well all the time). Everybody looks different and if you are okay with it, then it is okay.

My year 2008

Highlights:

- First days of 2008 in Ecuador with Jade
- Engagement 4.1.2008 under water in Ecuador
- Suprise trip for Micke to Tallin
- Classmeeting in May

- 1 month in Costa Rica

- Trip to Milan

- A lot more restaurant visits than last year

I am just so bored

Too board to write blogs. Too bored to do anything. I need plans in my life, an agenda, a semi full calendar. Now my calender is empty until the middel of January. I really have to start to focus and get something done. Maybe I should go to Hanken next week and try writing something. But it is so boring just to write. Boring. Next week I am going to exercise a lot also.

This week I have been like some boring homewife. I have cleaned, played with the baby (in this case the dog) made gingerbreads and cleaned some more, and started reading real books. But I am bored. I could never have a life like this, for a long, long time.

I also made a gingerbread pyramid.

Exiting life. But I am the only one to blame. I need to get away from Helsinki, my life is not nice here. My life was nice in Åbo and in Ecuador.

Messy me.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but nothing goes as planned anymore. I am always, at least used to be, very sharp, I don't forget, loose or mess-up things. This last week I have done it so many times.
It started with not having my passport with me and messing up everybody's Milan trip. Today I forgot my working shoes at home, so had to walk around in rubber boots at work for 8 hours, and I walk a lot as a waitres. I don't get my schoolstuff done and I am just a mess.

Is it the dark, rainy fall (it has still not snowed in Helsinki)? Or my flue? Or that I feel stressed? Or that I miss my poor husband to be?

He is out in the dark rainy woods with no toilet, no pillow, only a thin matress and a sleeping bag, a lot of responsability and only boys and guns and bears around him. Don't like the finnish army when they take him away from me for a week. I need my hugs and kisses.

Sunday again

The dogprincess Jigi is here again, until Wednesday. Today is fathers day. I am going to make chocolatemuffins for Mickes dad. I am so nice.

Yesterday we danced a lot. We are starting to get really good. Then I ate a lot of expenisve fish and in the evening we played poker and Cranium at Pedu and Tanjas place and I drank 3 alcholportions. Cider.

I like writeing like an 8 year old. It's simple.

Restless

My body is restless, just attacking Micke. I am soon going to an hour of body and kick away all the restlessness. Waiting. I feel I don't get anything done. Supposed to write a term paper, but am still a bit confused on what aspect to write about, and have alrady written almsot half of it. Great.

Just saw the new Gossip Girl. Great episode.

Watch Disney - avoid winter depression!

It is dark, dark outside, and cold and the winter is coming. Uuuh. But I have things to look forward:

- Christmas - no classes, a lot of candles, good food
- First week of January - I ordered clothes from H&M today for 300 euros (inlcuding those for Micke) and they will arrive then.
- February - I meet Tinna again.
- 14.2 our wedding
- 16.2 the Maldives
And then spring is here and things get better.

But before that, in 2 weeks I should figure out what to wirte my bachelor thing about. And then write it.

Today me and Micke watched "Robots" the Disney movie or maybe it's Pixar, I don't really know how they work. But still. A lovely make you feel happy movie: You can shine no matter what you are made of! Believe in yourself, don't give up! I need these movies in these times. Yesterday we watshed Aladdin, my favorite movie of them all.

Aj, aj, aj.

My body is aching and I could just sleep. Luckily Lee is coming to keep me company otherwise I would probably go to bed right now. Did a killer intervalmiddlebody training yesterday and today an hour of body, which was also tough. Now all my muscles are aching. It is cold in Finland, no snow yet, I don't like coldness and the darkness.

Wednesday afternoon

This is what I have done today:

Eaten Cesar salad in the sofa watching " how I met your mother". Soo good!

Played with our wedding invitations, bought stuf for the cards for 50 euros today and candles for 20. Now the cards' desgn is ready. And I really, really like it. After we have started to hand them out (will try to save on posting costs) I will show what they look like and how we made them. But you can already see the colors.

Party, work, party - now tired!

I am dead tired. Got to bed at 5.30. But have had so much fun, so much!!!
Yesterday we ate raclettes (cheeses filled with stuff) at Linas place and watched Big Brother (such a headless programme) Then we went to Molly's and Micke, Pedu, Kimmen were also at Molly's (not planned) They had had a boys night and we a girls night. It was good we met them, otherwise I would have had to go home earlier since I would not have tought of nightbuses. Now we were out until the light sign came. Has not happened ever with Micke. Micke always wanted to go home earlier in the beginning of our realtionship and now I always have something the next day, or I am tired. Now it is just studying for exams. Which I have not done.

I also worked yesterday. On Friday we had a suprise party for Jari. Also great, great! And then we were to Apollo and it was fun. Micke wanted to dance bug and fusku but he didn't really get that you can't dance it to all the music. We drank a lot of sparkling wine. Some pictures from Friday.

I want icecream. Home, to the door. Can someone bring some? Please.

No krabbis anymore.

Now I feel better than yesterday and now I really ahve to study, have had a 5 days break in studying. Stupid me.

My pillow is really, really good. I sleep so well with it.

Yesterday we watshed a lot of CSI and just had a great, great day. I made some photobooks on the If pages. Ate pizza and planned our wedding invitation cards. Micke has not played any WoW during this week, and it has been great. We have been really great. We also planned the cards together.

They are almost planned, now we just have to find a good printer and we can start making them. Yeah. Will send/ give them in late November.

Krabbis

My head is hurting, my mouth is dry and I am tired but can not sleep. I don not want to drink alcohol ever again. I mixed too many things. Stupid me.
We were at our place, and ate some metballs, sausages and so on on sticks and also some chocolate fondou. And drank. And played cards. I feel dead...

Dancing time

Dancing. Yesterday we dancesd jivi ( no idea how it is spellt) for 2,5 hours. Sweaty business. But fun. A lot of fun. Today we contined and danced bugg, fusku and jive for 3,5 hours. It is so much fun when things just work, and your body knows what to do.

Yesterday I went to wedding and love fair. It was okay, not so much info. If I would have needed a ring it would have been great. Or dress.

At the same place there was a health and well being fair, and also beauty. I bought a pillow for 92 euros. Pillows are really important for me. If they are bad I can't sleep. It is a tempur pillow, and the tempur material is really special. I want a tempur bed in the future, but they are so expensive. But I really, really want one. Micke is so heavy ( I am light as a bird...) so we just fall into the middle of the bed and sleep on each other.

Now we are having a stickparty, or something, in our home. Have to prepare.

Shitty morning.

Yesterday I was at work. It was ok. Today I got up early at 6.45, a bit tired. At 7.50 I left the house to take the train to school. I had an interesting class to attend (and I think that if I attend the classes I don't ahve to study so much for the exam). There were a lot of people at the train station. Because many trains had not come at all. The train was small. I got in to the train. Then we went 50 meters. Then the train stopped. Then we waited 30 minutes. It was hot and awful. Then the train started going to wrong way and back to my station. I got off and came home. I would ahve been so late so no point in going anymore. Now I am just worried for Micke since the buses are packed since no trains are going. Some technical problem. Lovely, lovely.

Fabulous fall in Finland

We live in Helsinki, the capital of Finland, but this place is 2 minutes form our home.Horses you know.

Look at the great colours!

Micke wants to become a traffic sign.

We on a nice Saturday walk. Then we met some ducks.

Micke is this happy to get married to me.

Our Saturday evening. Had a lot of fun.

Friday evening

Yesterday was such a relaxing day. After my interval-middlebody raining (which was almost killing me after 5 minutes), I went to drink 2 ciders with equilibrium (an organization for economics), and then I came home and we had a lovely evening with Micke. Some choclate fondue, fruits and a good christmas movie (love actually).

I am tired

I am both tired, and tired. Tired because of too little sleep, and tired of having disagreements with Micke every day. My tireness now is because of both these things. Sad but true. I hope that if I get it out of my system (inother words wiritng it out, not keeping it in) I can continue, without annoyence. Smart what?
There is a game called world of warcraft, and you can play it on internet with other people. It is the best game to keep people playing it, there are different levels, and when you reach the highest (can take months) you have to play to get better and get better things for your guy. The worst things of all is that you have to pay a monthly fee for playing it. So that means you just have to keep on playing if you once started. Smart people that invented it, but it won't help mine and Mickes situation, since he is quite hooked on that stupid, stupid game. I accpet him playing and understand that people have differnet hobbies, so that is not the problem.
The problem is that on Tuesday he played for 6 hours and came to bed at 2. Yesterday he palyed for 8 hours and came to bed at 1.30. And he sort of forgot me. And I think I should be more important than a game. He forgot to tell me goodnight, and he alwyas does that if I go earlier to bed, but not yesterday. So I woke up, when he came to bed at 1.30, and we had a big fight. Again. I would so liek to destroy that game, because it takes all his focus. He promised no to play for the whole next week, wonder how that will go.

But there are potentially some good news also, maybe. Involving a trip, but just maybe. And tonight I will see Dagny. Yey! So long since last time. She is also one of my bridesmaids... I think black will be their color. What doyou think about that?

Sex/Gender

I had an interesting class yesterday, it was about the sex of the child (girl/boy) and how the child's life is determined by his/her sex. To get the society more equal, people should not raise their kids to be a boy or a girl, but to be a good person. Even before children are born, in Finland too, parents give their children a sex, and when they are born the most important to know is if it is a boy or girl. But does it matter? It's a baby, and should be raised as a child, not as a boy or a girl. So, if I some day get a child, I don't want to know the sex, because it does not matter. And if it is a son, it will be a son wearing pink, and a girl playing with whatever she wants.

Drastic measures

I got sick of the fact that if one of us, me and Micke, is a bit annoyed or tired or something, we talk to each other in a stupid way, a lot with the words again, always, never. For example me complaining you never make food, you never take the initative to wash clothes, you always play computer games and again you forgot something. And these things are not true, in all the cases sometimes should have been used. So, there will be a boycot, at least from my side in the house of using these words (Micke does not know it yet), so I put up all these papers.





Another problem is that we expect the other to be as the other one is. For example Micke tells/asks me why I don't stand in the door for a long time in the morning when he leaves when he does it for me, and I again would like him to be more into wedding planning and cooking and baking and so on. We have just lately missed the fact that we are different, and behave differently, so we should not expect the other one the behave like the first one. But it's hard, especially with houshold things, I would like it to be exactly equal, that we put exactly the same amount on time on houshold stuff, I guess that will never happen. Hope my notes will help. One of them fell already.