Jag ekonomie kandidat

Nu är det helt på riktigt. Jag har helt formellt fått mitt betyg över ekonomie kandidatexamen. Inte något speciellt med det, men nu är jag iaf något!

Både doktorer, magistrar och kandidater fick betyg och så fick alla en ros och så skåla de med skumvin och jag med äppelsaft. For efter betyget på det officiella viset eftersom jag inte orka meddela att jag inte kommer, och annars sku jag först få det nästa vecka och då vill jag att vår baby ska komma.

Jag fira min examen genom att gå till McDonald's och äta en mc nugget meal.

Tired

Life is back to normal. Nothing special. Worked Tuesday and yesterday, and will work tomorrow again. And then we will go to our summer cottage for the weekend and just relax and eat.

Oh, I passed to bachelor thesis course, with a megalow grade, have never got such a bad grade in anything, but I passed and I guess the problem was that my motivation has not been the highest... Don't really know if I should care and worry a lot about this, or just forget it and be happy one phase is over. Guess I go for the second option.

My body is very tired today, no energy for anything. Blah.

Finally, hopefully, done

This morning I hopefully wrote my last exam for a long time. I wrote the "mognadsporvet" (exact translation: maturity exam) this morning. Not exactly sure what it checks, either that I wrote my own bachelor thesis or the language. It was not supposed to be difficult, and the 3 questions, which I chose one from, were not difficult either, but I had to write at least 4 pages, and I am not good at making things up. Just write how it is and that is it. When I had written half a page I started wondering how I will get 4 pages... Erased it all, and started again, and then I explained everything as well as I could and got 4,5 pages. Proud! Now I jsut hope I pass that course, no matter what grade, and I can take out my bachelors degree and start thinking about my future. Maybe I should focus on the EU. One thing is sure tough, I will take a master's degree, just not sure in what yet. Life changes people. And right now I have no clue what I want to do.

No motivation anymore

Great. Got an e-mail saying my bachelor paper was an disappointment. And I don't even care so much, just don't have the motivation anymore, and want the whole thing to be over. Have been half stressing with it now for half a year, so I am sick of it. If I want a slightly better grade I can still fix some language details, so I will do that. I now realize what I should have done, but tought I was doing that, but no. Want it to be over!!!

Work

Just counted I will work 15 days this month, and there are 31 days. So this month I have something to do, but what happens next month? (Except SNorge trip (To Norway trough Sweden with car and Lee) and a summer birthday party and midsummer)

Should get some sort of direction in life, but can't find it. I am lost. I was not accepted to Uppsala, but not because of me, but because they said I did not give the proof of my enlgish language. And that is bullshit. I wrote on a paper that I have 30 study points in courses that are tought in English, and which those courses were, and Hanken is a Nordic shool, so it should (and has to!) count. So have to wait some more, and when I get the papers home, I will have to appeal. Still don't know the results from Lund, but it would be so typical I get accepted there, since that happened last time 4-5 years ago, and I would like to go to Uppsala. Applied to a master programme in development studies.

Almost done

Yeah. It's 9 o´clock in the morning, I have just printed out the final version of my bachelor paper, the sun i shining and it is going to be a great day. Don't dare to read the paper tough, afraid I will find to many mistakes and have to print it again. I am quite sure I will pass, not with the best grades, but still pass, and that is what is important now, can't find the motivation to make it perfect. A bit sad of course, since I still have 7 hours.

But, today is wappen. I will go swimming to celebrate I am done (Can't really drink a bottle of sparkling wine, which I otherwise probably would to, or actually 2 bottles). Eat something nice, buy some paper to finish making the thank you cards, some nice flowery thing for my tomorrow's dress... Look forward to the day. Hopefully I won't get such a headache I had yesterday. Maybe it was from the sun, will use my broken sunglasses today, look so smart in them. (That was sarcastic).

Have a happy wappen!!

My minor

Happpy, happy, happy me!!! I passed the last exam in development studies, the weird one, got a 2 out of 5, so really bad, but I passed it. So now I have my minor in a package. So happy, happy, happy. Now I just need this bachelor course passed, and I am done with Hanken (I hope, not sure, but hope so). I so hope I get a studyright in Uppsala, to development studies. Would so like that. Will now the 5.5.

This morning when I went out with Jigi, I fell on the ice really hard, so now my back is hurting. Aj. But this made me happier. Only 1 exam more, 1 presentation, 1 opposition and 1 final paper. That's all the programme for my spring/summer. Have still not found a summer job. Great!

My life will soon again start

Soon I am sending in my first version. I have not worked particularly hard with it, it has just been the stress of getting it done. And of course I wanted it to be as nice as possible, since there will be opponents crashing it down, but now I have realised that better this way, now they have more to comment and I don't have to figure it out all by myself.

The last years of my shool before this (gymnasium) I worked so much harder. During the weekend in Pojo I found 10 paged papers, written on every row, with small margins, now I wrote 20 pages with rowdistance 1,5 and 3cm margins. So it is the same, or less. And I also found an old paper about Ecuador and it was 16 pages on every row. Crazy. I was so much more motivated there.

The weekend in Pojo was great. We went for walks with Jigi in the sun, ate a lot, had many good (and bad) discussions, I had my mom to read my bachelorthing (she said it was really boring and that I just repeat myself. Probably I do) and we went to see Bride Wars yesterday. It was entertaining, but a bit ennoying in the end. Just because you fight once or twice doesn't mean you should not get married and that you will fight the rest of your lives.

Now I am waiting for Micke to come home, he is working and he forgot his phone home, want to talk to him. I forgot mine last Thuesday. It is horrible not having the phone.

Next week I am going to do things, but I need money. I need to get a new passport and a drivers licens (with my new name), take photos for them. It will probably be around 100 euros. Expensive to change name. But we wanted to have the same last name (and I don't like double names and it would be weird for Micke to have the same name as my brother). And then I need to buy clothes and on Thursday we are going for stand up. And Jigi is coming on Wednesday and we get the car and then we go to Ikea to shop, and eat meatballs. Yei.

No pictuer this time either. Sorry.

Still alive

Hi!

I have been focusing on writing, have to be done on Sunday, but I am soon done. This is just the first version, will probably have to change a lot still, so no panic. I am just fighting with the conclusion...

Micke is now 26, he turned on Wednesday. I gave him tickets to Pablo Francisco and a Ben and Jerry cookie dough, and a nice shripfetacesar salad.

Now I am going to Pojo to relax with my mom and Jigi. Bye, bye.

Not striving high anymore

In the lower grades and in high school (or whatever gymnasium is called) I always strived for the best notes and just passing was never good enough. But now the situation is totally different. Since I started universty my biggest wish is just to pass the courses and I don't really care about the grade. And that is weird. But I have an explanation to it. I am not doing what I really enjoy and what I am passionate about. Because the courses I enjoy, I really try hard in them, and normally I get a good grade. But my grades in economics, my mayor, are crap.

I remember how I reasoned when I took economics as a mayor, it was mathematical, a good base in life, and something that would not be that simple, something I would have to work for. Sort of regret it now. Should have taken something simpler, something I actually can use, something so that I would have learnt to do something, such as accounting maybe.

When I am tired of something and unmotivated I just set my limit at passing, I just did that for my bachelor thing. Not smart. Should strive for better.

Great news!!!

We all get 1 more week for handing in the bachelor paper. Wau. So great news. So good. But I still have to focus and work hard, today I borrowed a lot of books on econometrics. The new deadline is 22.3.

And I changed my name in Hanken. I am now Michaela Lönnblad, even got a Kela card on that today.

Will maybe later give a short honeymoon report, we did so much but still nothing. The weather was perfect, perfect. I was not great all the time, problems with the stomach and the sun (could not be so much in the sun as I wanted). And the flight was long, long, long.

No concentration

I can't concentrate on shoolstuff anymore. Just dreaming about our days at Kuredu (hotel at Maldives), picking up my lovely expensive ring today and so on. Eating fastlagsbulle.

I am in shool, pretending to do something, but I have decided I have come far enough, so when I come back I will have some busy 2 weeks. 2 weeks is a lot of time if you are concentrated, and I will be. I won't complain of being back in cold, wet Finland, I will just look forward for the summer (ohh, I don't have a summerjuob yet...) I will be tanned, married and live happily ever after.

The last row is sarcastic.

My last big exam for a while

Tomorrow I have a mega important exam. If I don't pass it I am in serious problems, I won't probably get my bachelor degree this year if I don't pass it, and I can't retake the exam since there is only one time left to do it, and that is when I am on a paradise island with a lovely coctaile in one hand and the other in Mickes hand on the Maldives. So. Have to pass it. But still I am not studying.

I actually read the book, but it is a really difficult book and there is at least 350 different development theories, and people who have come up with these theories and toughts, and it is impossible to remember it all. Totally impossible. So I am doing on Micke's shool assignment instead, writing with a red pen (in word, the red color) what he should fix and change. Of course I am not giving it for free in the sence that I would change it. Just wirte what should be cahnged.

Next week I have to start writing on my bachelor thing, since I don't want everything left for the 2 weeks after the honeymoon, if it would be like that I would not enjoy paradise at all...

Not stressing...

Hello!

So many things going on at the same time, but I am just gonna stay calm. Less than 4 weeks to the wedding. Less. Never tought we would come here. At the moment I feel that things are looking good with the wedding. From the start the most important thing was my dress, and my dress is nice, and in 1 hours I will get to wear it again. Happy me. I could live in that dress. So I refuse to stress about other things (telling myself). 12 snapssongs is too much.. or is it, or aahha.. or how to make to seating order, the tables, decorations... nooo, not at all stressing. I stop now.

Again, my bachelor thing. I tought I knew what I was doing, but could not find the data, it does not exist. So I have felt so much pressure from it last week, so I could do nothing. Realised I have to change the approach and that it is a minor thing and nothing to stress and worrry about, so now I know what I will do. Don't care if it is good or bad in the end. I will still pass, somehow. Hopefully sweden will accpet me to their shools even if it is crap.

My exam on Saturday won't go well, but since I have almost read the book (only 50 pages left) I think I should pass. It is a bookexam. The book is extremely boring, have read 20 pages every day and it has almost been too much. Just a lot of theories of development. A lot.

Have no clue how I will spend the summer, work, internships and so on, and won't probably figure it out before the honeymoon. But Micke has a job, and that is good. At least we will survive.

My weekend

Yesterday was the last day to sign up for the wedding. There are 73 guests now, I guess we are part of that number, so in other words 71. But of course, there are 9 people who have not signed up yet. Hopefully they will get it done NOW!

I have been feeling a bit weird lately so haven't written blogs in a long time. Friday was a good day. Went to talk to be instructor/teacher (something) about my bachelor thing and now I know sort of what to write about. Good.
I also found the last missing part for my wedding outfit, it is something you wear under the dress that stays up. And it had cost 50 euros and now it was only 16. I also found a lovely grey cashmere sweater for Micke that had been 70 euros but was now only 20.

On Saturday, as well as Sunday we both tried to study. Saturday evening we went out eating with Pedu and Tanja. Not maybe the smartest economically but it was fun. And I love eating out!!
(The best of the foods, my maincourse and Mickes starter. Yum)
Afterwards the boys contined drinking and went on having a "boysnight" or more of an "boys´hour". (They got to drink one bottle of sparkling wine since they did not get that I said don't count on me drinking from it. I am having a semi "tipaton tammikuu")

So Micke was in quite bad shape on Sunday. But I took care of him, by going to the shop and buying unhealthy things for him.

Today I study!

Bye, bye holidays!

Tomorrow is the last stupid day. For 3 weeks now it has been at least one stupid day a week, and since I don't feel like starting a new life in between holidays or weekends I can just do it when they are gone. Another annoying thing is that nothing works, everything is closed, you just have to wait some weeks to get an answer. But soon, soon I get to do stuff with my brain. I hope. I started today, a little bit. Again I am confused about my bachelors thesis, don't know what aspect of the thing to study and it makes me go mad. Have to wait until next week when I can go and talk to the person in charge. And soon I have to know. Want to have a lot done before the wedding, looks bad, bad. Not proud of myself.

Today we cleaned out christmas, in other words our lovely christams tree. Bye,bye tree.That's it.

I want so, so much

As you have read from previous posts, I am not so satisfied with what I am studying. Economics is okay but it is just too inhuman or something similar to me. I will this spring get my bachelor degree, and after that I can go somewhere else and take a masters degree.

I would really, really love to do a master in development studies. So now I am trying to get all the papers needed for this, so that I have a chance to get in to Uppsala or Lund (in Sweden) to study a master in development studies next fall. I really hope I get in, because I know that development studies is something I am really into. But I need a lot of papers. The deadline for applying is the 15.1 and I should have my bachelor degree already, and send in my bachelor thesis (whish I have not really started writing yet) then, but with a lot more papers I still have a chance.

I want it.

I have been a great soon to be wife today. I made a "radiokaka" for Micke (he has been asking for one for a long time), I agreed to invite the missing guest and I made pizza. Tomorrow it is new years eve. We are spending it with friends in Tölö. (helsinki)

Less than 2 months..

I sit in front of the computer all the time, all day long, that's probably why I don't have any interest in blogging at the moment.

A new week has begun, and a new life with it. No candies for me before christmas, a lot of work out and a lot of research on remittances done. I actually sit in Hanken, in a computer room now, trying to finnish my Spanish paper and then in the afternoon I will go do some work out.

The weekend was nice. Fun, fun, fun with not too much alchol. Great. Yesterday was the unhealthiest day in a long time with pizza as breakfast and just a lot of bad snacks the rest of the day. We did some wedding party planning, and then we tried dancing. We are bad. It will be fun watching us.

In bed later on I got a bit panici when I realised it is only less than 2 months left, and there is still so much to do. I do not recommend fixing a big wedding. If I would do it all again, I would just have a civil ceremony (fa till magistratet) and then go on a honeymoon. It is so expensive to fix a nice party, and if there is a party it should be somehow nice. But nothing can be done about is anymore. Just to live with the consecuences.

Glöggrundan, soon we come!

I was very lovly lovy yesterday. Now I am not anymore. Now I am normal again. But happy.

Just had my second last presentation before christmas, have my last one next Monday (about bananas in Spanish), have no exams before christmas, me, micke, pedu, tanja, lee, dagny and steffen are all going to be at glöggrundna next Firday, there is a lot of snow outside and I feel good (even if I have not worked out for weeks, I blame the flue!).

Today I work from 13-22. Hope the planes are on time today.

Help me!

Uuuh. Now I really feel stressed. I don't know what to write my bachelor's thesis about. Not at all. Have been trying to figure it out now for some hours and don't get any good idea. Not even one. And I have to know before tomorrow because then Lee comes here to make invitation cards with me. I have already made around 10. It takes a long time. But I like them, they are pretty. I will try to send as few as them as possible, since it costs 85 cents to send a card in Finland. So, have to meet all our guests.

We got the weddingstuff we ordered some weeks ago. I got so, so upset with Micke, because I accidenlty found the note on the table where it said the package had arrived (it arrived on Friday) , and Micke had not said anything. If I would not have cleaned now, we might never have found it. But he was really sorry in the cold, rainy forest so I could not be angry at him for long. He had not even noticed the note.