Disagreements in relationships

I want to write about my realtionship, couple realtionship, toughts. I think it is natural, and good to have fights and big arguments and sadness and downess and so on. I am still not so sure that a man and a women are meant to live together forever 24/7, and for individual persons in today's world it is not easy to do. People will always be different and there is no one that is the same. That's why good fighting is good in relationships, because for me that means that the realtionship is working. And I don't think it should be a shameful thing to have fights in a realtionship, it is just natural, and that is why I don't think fights have to happen inside the doors of the home. Of course it is embaressing for the witnesses of couple fights, but that's life. And if you accept fighting/disagreements as a natural thing, you, as a couple won't give up after some big fights. We all are different.

And after a downtime, everything feels so much better.

Wedding rings

Yesterday we ordered our wedding rings and paid part of it, so now it is real real real. I get a great ring. Normally wedding rings ca be from gold, white gold, platina or titanium. We are going to have it in titanium, it is the strongest material.
Mickes ring is going to be very special, but still not so outstanding, so it will still be nice in 70 years. Mine is also going to be a ring to wear forever and that is why the price went up a bit form the budgeted 400 (a bit meaning almost 3 times more...), because this is THE sign of the marriage, so it have to be nice. It will be especially done for me and it will have 9 diamonds in a row, since 9 was the only number to make some sort of sence, since we are getting marriad 2009. And it will go perfectly together with my engagement ring. We take our rings from GL (Gad Leison).

I also had a nice afternoon with Mixu, Melle and Lee. Felt like in the old days when we were hanging out in Serendi. We have become so old. And wise.

Over

Now mine and Mickes fight is over. It has been a quiet evening. I have counted that we have approximetly 1 bad day for every 14 days. That means one bad year and 13 good. That is quite okay.
He just said that his wedding ring text should be: grande idiota. I somewhat agreed. The bad atmosphere came from me thinking Micke plays to much and doesn't do anything for our wedding and that alll the responsibility is on me, and that I don't want a wedding.

My none dresses

Go to Lees blogg to check out some dresses I decided not to take.

Hi

Micke is a WoWholic. I am really anoyed right now. Lee is here. I made a mud cake, it was too muddy, all the mud was in the end on the table. Not my bakingday today. Not at all. We had a playing card game night yesterday. It was fun. Tanja suggested osama bin laden would be USA next president.

I found my dress

I have a wedding dress!

I tried in total 4 dresses, and the one I decided to go for was the first one I tried on. It wasn't the first one because I decided so, but because the person dressing me decided so, but still, the first one. The second one was also really lovely, it was in gold color, but in white it would not have been as nice.
Mine is quite ordinary, but the color is a bit more special. It was comfortable and nice looking. I am happy with it. And now I have one thing less to stress about. I could maybe have found a nicer one if I kept looking for a long, long time, but you never know. Now this is decided and hafly paid. It is a rent dress from suomen pukuvuokraamo.

Now my biggest problem is not to tell Micke what it looks like, that will be difficult. I want to tell everybody!

Love

"Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing" - Goethe

"Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end." - Anonymous

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, and always with the same person." - Mignon McLaughlin

Made my decision

I jsut made my decision, or actually yesterday night. I won't go on the studytrip to the states. You can't have everything in life and this is so risky. So if there won't fall down a lot of money from the sky in 1 day, I won't go. Which of course is a bit sad, but New York will always be New York. And I can read about the companies and organisation on internet.

I started an interesting university class yesterday, about children in developing countires. It seems very interesting.

I want, you want, we want

Sometimes we have funny problems with Micke. For example when there are 2 dishes left from previous days, in other words one portion of one dish, and one of the other. Then there is the problem, who gets which food. Because Micke wants me to get the food I like more, and I want Micke to have the food he likes more. And then it might be quite problematic, if we both think the other one wants one of the dishes. It might even result in a fight. And even more problematic if for example I, don't know which food Micke would like to have more, and he won't answer with a simple answer, because he wants to give me the better food. Problematic?! Yes.
But one day we found the greatest solution. We both eat half and half of the dishes. And then we won't have any problems. And we get a more diverse diet.

I am still lost

Had a bad nights sleep with weird dreams, and then I was afraid I would hit Mickes (now red) toe. I went to shool at 8, and found out after half hour of waiting we ahd no class. Lovely. Shopped socks and got home. Now I have been trying to figure out my life. Get a plan.
Uppsala looks like a nice opportunity. If I could, I would love to study a masterprogram in development studies there. Then I would be this year in Helsinki and then if I don't get in in Uppsala next year, just work for a year.

So my second problem is if I have the money to go to New York and Washington. I want to go, but at this point I don't know If the money I potentially would spend would give me something in return, but then again if it would be paid, then why wouldn't I go. But then we get to the question, how interested am I in the US economy, am I willing to pay at least, or maybe less, 600 euros for it. Especially since there are other things I would like to do this year, than just eat peasoup.

Life toughts

Falling in love has made me something I never tought I would become. Never. But I would absolutly NOT change it for anything. The greatest thing is to love and be loved (from some smarts song). I really feel that it is like that, love is one of the greatest feelings in life.
But, there is always a but. When I chose love I lost my passion for a great career. And that is not because of Micke, that is totally something that has changed in me. I see that marriage, familiy, kids, living together, life together is something really really great, and something I truly want. But all my life before Micke I was just striving for a nice career, I had a focus in my studies, a goal. Nothing, no one else mattered. Now I am totally lost. I mostly study because it would be stupid to give up now, but I have no clue what exactly to do with it all.
I know that if I some years back would have tought I would become like this, I would never have allowed myself to do it, but now when I am here, I would never go back. Never.

I just have to find a new direction in life, and it is probably not the one that was good for me in my old life. And I have the greatest person to support me in it, since Micke is so so supportive for everything that has to do with my life, he always tells me to take the opportunities.

Should I go for the study trip to New York or not?

I don't think I am so into economics anymore, it is just so out of this world. I want something real. Have to find my passion and focus in life. It can't just be food and Micke.

Breakfasts

I really love big, late breakfasts. And breakfast food is one of my favourite foods. It is so great to start the morning with a lot of water (0,5-1 liter), some internet and then when you are hungry have a big nice breakfast: Bread, cheese, trukey, vegetables, bran flakes, milk, coffee, fruits. Mmmm. But when shool starts at 8, it is not so nice. Saturday, Sunday breakfasts are the best.
And american pancakes are good, even if it is not so much breakfast food for me, too sweet. Bacon and egg is also kind of new for me. But nice things.

Micke has a blue toe

Micke hit his toa against the training bike in the morning. Really hard, and now it has a weird blue purple color. Now he is eating Nesquick choclate flakes with milk. He is a big baby. But he is mine.

Trying dresses

On Firday at 11 I am going to try on wedding dresses. Aaahhh. Scary! I am going to rent one. I just have to find one.

Fazer choclate

Taking some pieces of fazer choolate after a nice sunday meal with chicken, red wine sauce, salad, potato pancakes and white wine (such an un harmonized comibnation) is very, very good! Haven't had plane chocolate for 2 weeks. I am good.