För 4 år sen..

..blev jag student. Hade en fin frisyr med en blomma i och en rosa bandlös klänning som jag ännu tycker att är fin och så fick jag ett stipendium på cirka 1000 euro. På bjudningen som var i Ingå hade vi prinsesstårta och saltiga muffins (som inte var lyckade). Knipan kommer jag inte ihåg mycket av, efter det var jag i Jumpen tror jag (och fick nåt rött bak på klänningen som likna mensblod, men det var inte det), kom hem cirka 11 tiden på söndag och såg allt annat än vacker ut. Med andra ord kommer jag inte ihåg dagen så bra. Saknar digifoton från den tiden.

Några veckor efteråt skrev jag inträdesförhör i u-landsforskning (kom inte in) och sen for jag till Ecuador för 2,5 månader. Var också till Colomiba för 2 veckor. For för att hitta mig själv för hade saknat så tillbaka till Syd Amerika, men när jag kom dit konstatera ja att det som ja sakna fanns här i Finland. Och då kände jag för första gången hur äcklig känslan saknad kan vara. Hade en vecka före min studentdimission träffat Micke.

Och jag skrev också åt mig själv att jag inte sku "fucka up" det, för det, och han, kunde bli det bästa som nånsin hänt mig. Och det var det nog och fortsättnignsvis är det. Annars sku ja inte ha ett litet liv som är väldigt morgonpiggt som sparkar i min mage nu...

Me and my muffin

McDonald chocolate muffin. One of the yummiest muffins ever. So fluffy with chocolate pieces.

Yes, enjoying it very much!


After the family preparation we went to Dubliner. Micke had some beers, I drank soda water and I lost in chess. I really dislike how you just can't loose it if you want to, but you have to put yourself in a position so that the other can win, no matter what you do.

Some boxing with a Wii machine, and bowling and golf and tennis at Dubliner.

That was my day yesterday. Today, tomorrow and Sunday I work. Hopefully people, including me, are in a good mood. And it is good to work, I walk a lot and burn calories and don't have time to eat so much.

Dreaming of chocolate cake

My visit to Kela was not worth the trip in to the center (we live 15 minutes by train from the center). The woman knew nothing. So I continue my own research.

Micke took the camera again, so no pictures for the blog. Sorry!

Today I have alrady taken a walk (everything to get my toughts away from food and chocolate cake) and in the afternoon we have to first "family preparation" meeting. And I will probably go by McDonald's and buy a chocolate muffin. They are soooo good. And have 500 calories.

Could just eat all the time, exactly all the time. It's crazy. And so difficult to resist. Pizza, hamburger, french fries, choclate cake, cheesecake...

KELA here I come!

I am now going to KELA/FPA (the finnish social security office) and discuss how much money I can get when I stay home for a year with the baby. Probably just the minimum since I am a student, but I want to be sure about that. Will be interesting. And probably take a long time.

154 days of my pregnancy have passed (today it should be 158) so now I can apply for the babybox (a box filled with stuff for the baby, like clothes) and then money for the first 105 days and some sort of child pay (100 euro a month for the first child).

By the way the book I read was crap. And I realised it on the last page, after having read 400. No conclusion in the end, have no idea how it actaully ended, don't like making up my own endings.

Alles gut!

Yes. Everything was okay with me and the baby. I had gained 2,6 kg, those that I had lost last time. So now I am at the starting weight... I don't want to get much heavier, I don't need to since my weight right now is quite high. But I love food and I love to eat.

7 kgs total weight gain would be okay by me, max. I think around 12-14 is the average. How much did you gain during your pregnancy (if any of my readers have been pregnant) ? And did you get it away?

Rådgivning

Since I can feel that everything is okay with the baby (otherwise it should not be kicking...) the thing I worry the most about is how much weight I have gained. I fear something like 6 kg. And that is not good. 6 kg in 5 weeks would be horrible. I hope it is less, but it is really hard to say based on my body, since the stomach is growing and in any case getting bigger, and I eat all the time all too much.

Have to stop.

Life is good!

Oh. My life is actually quite perfect right now. The sun is shining, the trees and the grass is green, I have 4 days until I work the next time, the house is quite clean, my sausage soup is soon ready, I am married to the love of my life and right now happily pregnent (the baby is kicking many times a day so I know everythign is alright and tomorrow I will get to hear heartsounds again). What more could I ask for? Nada.


Will just try to enjoy this moment and read a good book. Right now I am reading "Kronprinsessan" by Hanne-Vibeka Holst.

Oh, and I am going to Sweden and Norway with the bestest Lee next Monday. Will drive to Norway to visit Dagny.

Boring workdays

Today and tomorrow I work again. Hopefully it will not be as stressful as last Wednesday, I am so used to calm harmonic days and my body is not up for too much running.

Tonight I will be home all alone, and have to sleep all alone, which is quite nice since then I have to bed all to myself. I like my space when I sleep. Our bed is 160 cm. Micke is going to a friend for a game evening/night. That means a lot of alcohol and boy stuff and then he will just be too lazy to come home.

The great Thursday

Oh, yesterday was so one of the greatest days in a long time. A day when everything was just perfect.

Spent the day home with Micke, watching food programmes and doing nothing smart. Since our fridge was quite empty we made spanish tortilla for lunch. Okay, but quite boring.


In the afternoon/evening we went bowling with Jari and Dannu. I think I lost. After the first 10 throws my arm was so tired I lost the interest in the game.


Then time for some food. We went to Casa Largo and I ate a lot. Since I can't drink (or of course I can, but I don't think it is right) I tought I can eat the calories instead. And also because I love food and I am hungry all the time. Had two tapas starters. Gazpacho and garlicbread with tomato. As a main course paella valenciana and desert chocolate mousse with churros. A totally spanish day foodwise.


I had fun and the best was I did not even feel out even if I was not drinking.

Hopefully my down time is coming to an end and all my days will be happier.

Finally, hopefully, done

This morning I hopefully wrote my last exam for a long time. I wrote the "mognadsporvet" (exact translation: maturity exam) this morning. Not exactly sure what it checks, either that I wrote my own bachelor thesis or the language. It was not supposed to be difficult, and the 3 questions, which I chose one from, were not difficult either, but I had to write at least 4 pages, and I am not good at making things up. Just write how it is and that is it. When I had written half a page I started wondering how I will get 4 pages... Erased it all, and started again, and then I explained everything as well as I could and got 4,5 pages. Proud! Now I jsut hope I pass that course, no matter what grade, and I can take out my bachelors degree and start thinking about my future. Maybe I should focus on the EU. One thing is sure tough, I will take a master's degree, just not sure in what yet. Life changes people. And right now I have no clue what I want to do.

Waitressing

Yesterday was a horrible day at work. Feel sorry for those who actually work there, since they probably have to go back there today, or then they were there on Tuesday. My body is totally dead from yesterday.

It was horrible because we had many customers, annoying customers and too few waitresses. The greatest thing I managed to do was to fell a tray of Pepsi, wine and a galss bottle of mineralwater between 2 tables. Luckily I did not hit anybody, and the fluid did not touch anybody, but the time it took to clean could have been spent better. Was quite ashemed, tried making sad jokes about the airport as a dangerous place... After this nothing worked. You know there are a lot of things for a waitress to do and many things to remember, so I hope no one thinks waitressing is an easy job. It is not. Yesterday I had 13 tables to look after, each table can seat 4 persons. For these tables I have to do: bring fork and knife, take orders, bring drinks, bring food, maybe bring some more drinks or something that is missing, ask for desert, take out coffees, bring the bill, clean the table from the plates and finally clean the table before the next customers come. That is about 8 tasks . And then when all the 13 tables want me to do some of the tasks, for example bring the bill, then it is chaos!!!

This morning I still somehow found the energy to be the perfect wife. Made some coffee and american pancakes for Micke to the bed. Tought that would wake him up. But no, he ate the pancakes, drank some coffee and continued sleeping.

Small kicks

Have now for almost a week been able to feel small kicks when I lay still and have my hand on the stomach. Feels good to know something is moving around. Now I am just waiting for bigger kicks so that Micke also could see and feel it... He is waiting so much.
Now 21+3 weeks.

Sleepy

Today I had boring household stuff on the agenda, such as wash clothes, clean the toilet, clean kitchen, make food. In other words very boring stuff.

After waking up at 8, I went back to bed around 11 and slept for 3 hours. After that I have been tired and not as motivated to clean as I should have been. The toilet and kitchen are still dirty. But I know everythign that is happening in the doctor Phil house.

Oh, I did one great thing today. Dinner. Salmon with dijonsauce and potatos. Yummi and so simple to make.

Proud owners of Teutonia Spirit s3

Wihiii. We are now proud owners of a black red teutonia spirit s3 from 2007. And it is in our bedroom. We are, tough, 300 euros poorer, but that is better than being 800 euros poorer (if we would have bought a new one). Happy, happy me. I just wanted this model so much, it is perfect for Helsinki and shops and cafes, but also long walks on sandy roads. So we bought it now when we found a good priced used one.

We bought it from a family in Helsinki, still some warranty left.


We also bought a nice baby sitter from them, and then we got some baby clothes for free. Now we are quite prepared for the baby. Waiting so much, 18 weeks left. Too much!

But the first ride was not perfect. Not at all, luckily there was no baby in it!

We had to take the bus, metro and train. When entering the bus I managed to forget to break was on, then I tried getting in with the front wheel, but it was too high, so had to lift it. But then I lifted on the wrong place, so the seat that was in a lying position went up and the bag for the baby that was inside fell out, and then I got stuck in front of the door... Total chaos. Was so ashamed. Luckily the bus was empty and there was no baby. Have now learned that you should enter the bus with the 2 wheel side. After that Micke got to drive.

Nutella

From Mickes best friends we got a picnic basket filled of yummi stuff as a wedding gift. Yesterday I found one of those yummi things, Nutella spread, and now I can't stop eating it. Breakfast, dessert, snack...When I was around 10 we always had it at our summercottage... Summery feeling.


Another childhood thing I did today was to buy the fish "flundra". We used to buy that from the market on Saturdays and it was so mmmm. Today I had it for lunch. It was good, but very salty.

Bought 2 fishes and since I never buy fish I did not understand it would be so expensive. 2 of them was 9 euros. Horror. I don't buy fish because I don't like it, more because it is quite expensive and in the small shops that are close to us they don't sell so much fish. Should become a fisherwomen.

Today we are going to check out an used pram, a teutonia spirit s3. The one I want the most. Only problem at the moment with the one we are going to look are the colors, red and black are not my favorite. But poor students becoming parents can't complain!